The 10-page excerpt is attached to a March 17 letter to Judge Larry A. Burns, who presided over the case. The letter was also sent to several media outlets, including San Diego CityBeat.
In the letter, Cunningham says that since the judge has unequivocally declared his case closed, despite Cunningham's requests for reconsideration, he's now ready to share his tale with the media that have "inundated" him with inquires (more than 40 outlets over seven years). At times, Cunningham seems optimistic that he will one day return to public life. At other points, the 69-year-old cancer patient confronts his own mortality.
"Perhaps it is time to end my silence and tell the untold story, at least to record it here for my family and friends before I take my last flight into the wild blue yonder," the former Vietnam War combat pilot writes in the opening paragraphs of what he has titled 'The Untold Story of Duke Cunningham.'
Cunningham notes that Burns is also the judge in the case of Jared Lee Loughner, who's facing prosecution after allegedly killing six people, including a federal judge, and wounding U.S. Rep. Gabrielle Giffords, during a shooting rampage in Tucson. Cunningham is currently imprisoned in the Satellite Prison Camp at the federal penitentiary in Tucson.
"A few days after this shooting rampage, Air Force One brought US President Barrack Hussein Obama to Tucson, along with some of his cabinet members to pay respect to the victims of this dreadful tragedy," he writes in his journal. "We could see Air Force One as it came in for a landing, a few miles north of the prison camp where I am writing these thoughts. President Obama went to visit 'Gabby' and other survivors at the hospital. He also spoke at the Memorial Service at the University of Arizona campus - urging us all to tone down divisive discourse and create the kind of American government that 9 year old Christina Green wanted to believe in before she was shot and killed on that tragic day in Tucson at her neighborhood grocery parking lot.His journal chronicles how he was a "walking skeleton" when he signed the plea agreement in 2005, having rapidly lost 100 pounds due to prostate cancer and having been doped up on sedatives. He says he knew the plea was "90 to 95% untrue," but he made a mistake and trusted his lawyers.
"I also want to believe in that kind of American government - for which I also took a few bullets over the years. And I want my children to know that I did my best to uphold and defend the Constitution against all enemies, as I have sworn to do most all my life. I have stood before national leaders to receive honors and other awards of valor - but I have also stood before a judge to answer for my shortcomings as a Congressman. I manned up to my errors in judgment, but I have also endured affliction for things I did not do, like other innocent souls, but somehow we carry on, believing as we must that truth will ultimately prevail with those who know our hearts."
Cunningham was accused of trading lucrative contracts for bribes from defense firms. In the journal, Cunningham goes over the evidence, item by item, arguing that the transactions characterized as bribes by the U.S. Attorney's Office were little more than reimbursements. He rails against the prosecution, accusing them of duplicity and intimidation, and attacks the IRS, which has continually sought his assets.
In one especially revealing passage, Cunningham addresses the accusation that he had sex with a prostitute in Hawaii while on vacation with contractor Brent Wilkes.
"At no time did I ever state that I had sex with a prostitute in Hawaii, and the DOJ bastards know it," he writes. "I told the prosecutors I would submit to any doctor or sex therapist etc to prove it was impossible. I had radical prostate surgery which left me almost impotent even with the use of ED [erectile dysfunction] medication after a year of recuperation."
Cunningham also gives a deeper glimpse into his life in prison. He is looking forward to his ability qualify for a furlough soon and his release in June 2013. In addition to teaching GED courses to inmates, he has begun playing paddle ball and softball on the weekends.
"If the good Lord extends my life, I will continue to be a champion for judicial and prison reform, and against the intimidation of IRS agents and DOJ prosecutors who use threats to get plea 'agreements' - and the many other cases I have documented in recent years about the abuse of government power," he writes. "I would not have believed it -- until my family faced it first.
"There is much more to this untold story ... but let this suffice for now," he ends.